Mindful Monday #23 – Tests
“I feel like I am being tested.” I told my friend this weekend. “And I am not sure if I am passing the test? I just want to get through it.” I have thought a lot about how life tests our strengths, perspectives, desires and our maturity. This time last year I felt that I was clearly being tested by life. I remember it clearly, I was working on a big budget movie, my position was coming to an end and I was offered a new position. As a freelancer in the film industry, if you are offered more days on a show, you take it. The other option was unemployment. It may sound odd, but I chose unemployment. I worked consistently that year, without a break and I was in dire need of one. I told myself that when I got the chance to take a break I would take it. The road not taken lead me to many realizations that are comparable to the realizations that I have had this year. In the process, last year, I found my voice (The Unimaginable). Since then my life has never been the same and has pushed me toward this “leap of faith.” Recently I realized that what feels like a waiting period in the darkness/ unknown is actually a test. And I am not sure I am passing. I think one thing I am meant to learn is patience. That’s why my emotions have flowed like mother nature on a mood swing (How to Feel Your Emotions) these past few weeks. Since my friends are also tested by life I wanted to find a quote to bring perspective on the things we experience in life that we may not quite understand as we experience them.
