Mindful Monday #38 – Above the Waves

10/27/2014

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My goals for the year (to Face Fears, Be Vulnerable Always and Let Go) have been the most effective and challenging goals I have ever set, in all my years of goal setting.

Life became more challenging when I decided to take “the leap of faith” and I have not been able to catch my breath since. August was the first time, this year, that I questioned my decision to take the leap toward re-directing my life to a new vision.

I felt like I was in the ocean with no land in sight.

I didn’t tell anyone that I felt like I was treading water and I could drown if I didn’t watch it. That feeling of doubt has come up again. Rather than turn that doubt around with a positive quote or view, it weighed heavily on me, from September up to this past Monday. I felt like I was drowning, and despite all the beauty that I have found with this new vision, I started to really regret all of it.

I am in the thick of change, a change I have never experienced before.

It’s not just one thing in my life that is changing, but everything. It has been very hard to stay grounded and present. Most importantly I started to lose hope.

I’ve asked the universe a series of questions this whole time and the only message I got was be patient. Be Patient. Be Patient. As I started to turn my back on my new vision, this week, out of nowhere, a flood of answers came.

You are on the right path.
You are supported and love surrounds you.
Doors are opening for you. While those doors, don’t make sense now, they will make sense in time.
Your vision is getting stronger and clearer.
And as I wrote this post I remembered a lesson from my month of writing, “This is happening for you.”

My Mindful Monday quote this week is a mantra from the song “Oceans (Where Feet May Fail)” by Hillsong United.