I have a friend that I’ve known for about 6 years, but we have only become real friends within the past two years. This friend always says that I am their only friend and each time I hear this it startles me. I’m concerned because I only see this friend on occasion, when I visit my home town. This friend is not the first of my friends who either doesn’t have friends or has trouble making or keeping friends.
Sometimes people get hurt in ways that taint their trust within others or in humanity. I am familiar with that place. When I was made fun of as a little girl I had select friends throughout my childhood that I trusted. When I was betrayed in college, I cut everyone out of my life, except my family, because I was so hurt. Back then I thought that being alone was the answer, but I learned in the deep, dark pit of betrayal that that was when I needed friends the most. I use to think that being single forever was the life of unlimited possibility, and it can be, but as I grow older I have realized that I want to experience life with someone.
Today’s Tune Tuesday speaks to some of the stories within our heart about pain. No matter what pain or story is in your heart of hurt from your parents, family, co- workers, friends or romantic partners – Love Again and always lead with love. 🙂
“I Am A Rock”
IA winter’s day
I am alone,
Gazing from my window to the streets below
On a freshly fallen silent shroud of snow.
I am a rock,
I am an island.I’ve built walls,
A fortress deep and mighty,
That none may penetrate.
I have no need of friendship; friendship causes pain.
It’s laughter and it’s loving I disdain.
I am a rock,
I am an island.Don’t talk of love,
But I’ve heard the words before;
It’s sleeping in my memory.
I won’t disturb the slumber of feelings that have died.
If I never loved I never would have cried.
I am a rock,
I am an island.I have my books
And my poetry to protect me;
I am shielded in my armor,
Hiding in my room, safe within my womb.
I touch no one and no one touches me.
I am a rock,
I am an island.And a rock feels no pain;
And an island never cries.
Illuminated Voice 