Tune Tuesday #5 – Dead Inside

Today’s song has grabbed my attention and got me thinking.

When it comes to dating I tell my friends that I want to date a man who has passion for life, work, a social issue or creating change. Thinking further I noticed that I choose and seek to be surrounded by people who have passion. I can not be surrounded by people who are okay with just existing. I’ve always lived life with a sense of purpose and I feel that my obstacles as a child have built me up in this way.

When I was a little girl I remember seeing a lot of adults going through the motions of life, without passion, purpose or love for the life they were living.

I remember how I couldn’t understand why they would say one thing when their eyes and expressions were showed something completely different. I never asked about this contradiction, I just noticed it.

Now that I am an adult, it’s painful to see people like this because I can see the hurt, pain and suffering and I know there are so many people who are just as unhappy.

What is it about life or our experience that turns our switch off and makes us live life on auto pilot? As long as you have breath in your lungs you have a reason for breathing and being and living your best life, so why not live it? What or who is holding you back from your vision? Do you have direction, passion or a sense of purpose or do you feel dead inside?

Dead Inside by Muse

Dead inside!

Revere a million prayers
And draw me into your holiness
But there’s nothing there
Light only shines from those who share

Unleash a million drones
And confine me then erase me babe
Do you have no soul
It’s like it died long ago

Your lips feel warm to the touch
You can bring me back to life
On the outside you’re ablaze and alive
But you’re dead inside

You’re free to touch the sky
Whilst I am crushed and pulverised
Because you need control
Now I’m the one who’s letting go

You like to give an inch
Whilst I am giving infinity
But now I’ve got nothing left
You have no cares and I’m bereft

Your skin feels warm to caress
I see magic in your eyes
On the outside you’re ablaze and alive
But you’re dead inside!

Feel me now
Hold me please
I need you to see who I am
Open up to me
Stop hiding from me
It’s hurting babe
Only you can stop the pain

Don’t leave me out in the cold
Don’t leave me out to die
I gave you everything
I can’t give you anymore
Now I’ve become just like you

My lips feel warm to the touch
My words seem so alive
My skin is warm to caress
I’ll control and hypnotise

You’ve taught me to lie
Without a trace
And to kill with no remorse
On the outside I’m the greatest guy
Now I’m dead inside!