I went out last night to celebrate a friends birthday. We met through improv and are friends on facebook, but we don’t see each other or catch up regularly. A year into studying improv, I took time off and she moved into a new portion of the school. We haven’t seen each other in about a year or more. Last night was the first time I saw her in months. She told me she quit her job and said that something I told her made her decide to take the risk. I was shocked, I could not recall anything I said to her that could have such an impact? She said I told her, “If you get rid of the negative stuff, then it gives room for the positive stuff to come in.” She said her response to that statement was, something like that doesn’t pay the bills. In her own time, she realized that she needed to move on to change the energy in her life.

This is the second time, in less than a month, that someone has taken such a daring risk towards the life they want as a result of my words. Words have weight. I never wanted to say anything that immobilizes anyone, because people have said such things to me. This has always been my fear. This friend also told me she thought I had really great instincts and made interesting choices as an improviser. (In my self judgement I feel I have a long way to go as an improviser to perform in front of an audience.) She said if I could just let go, then I’d be very good. I told her that that is the fear I am working on fully letting go to just be on stage and in life. I am thankful for last night, because I needed every moment of that conversation. I have struggled to find music recently that speaks to where I am at this time, but this conversation help me identify the perfect song.

Today’s Tune Tuesday is a spiritual song that really resonated with me when I found my voice because I wanted to know my voice and the life that waited to be discovered. The more I pushed myself to let go and be, the more my awareness expanded, which deepened my spiritually. I started to understand life in a new way everywhere I turned.

More Than Everything by MSC

I hear your voice
In the storm
In the hollow