Searching for Christmas

Christmas is almost here. I loved this season ever since I was young. Everyone is friendlier, warmer and more giving.

I have always wished that the essence of the season would live in the hearts of everyone throughout the year.

This year the season feels different. I’m finding it hard to find Christmas in my heart because all I find is sadness. While I have learned from my year, it has taken a hard emotional toll on me. I could hide my sadness, for your comfort or for mine, but I choose to honor and feel this emotion no matter how uncomfortable it makes you or me feel. I am curious where this emotion will lead and what truths it holds.

There is a light in this emotion and I am determined to find it.