I was nervous as I got ready this morning.
The thought “I’m not suppose to be here” resounded in my mind.
Not here as in this transition, but here as in the training. I knew I was about to step into a space filled with psychologist, therapist, social workers and me.
I am not a psychologist, therapist, or social worker. I identify myself as a leader and I want to be a community leader. My desire is to step out more in the community to serve it in any way I can.
With that awareness, I told myself that I am supposed to be here because of my journey, my heart and calling led me here.
I planned to attend this training this past fall, but when I signed on to the movie I recently wrapped, I had to push it off to this year. This last movie had several schedule changes that almost required me to push again, but I put my foot down. I made sure to carve out this space for myself and pay for the training in advance as an intention. My thought and energy was come hell or high water, I am going to do this training. Work is not going to get in the way again.
As I stepped into the training, I felt at home. Just the way I did when I first stepped into Council. Just like I did when I first stepped into my Council training. Just like I do, when I am at places that feel like home to me. Part of this journey that I am on is me defining or redefining home for me, which I will explain in another post.
After experiencing the first day of this training and a new journey, I feel like I am a leader on the rise. I was a leader in junior high, high school and college. As the result of a betrayal, in college, I stopped leading.
I was never asleep. I was simply resting. Now, I am restored, I am ready to hold space and create space for others in community.
Love- Stephanie XO