Mindful Monday #99 – Not Afraid
Working on location has been so insightful and it is one of the best things that I didn’t know I needed.
I did not want to work on location for three years because I knew it would be more demanding. I was right. Work has been more demanding then I anticipated. However, so much has come to the surface during this interesting shift in my life and for that I am grateful.
I have let fear hold me back from time to time.
I have feared moving up in my career, because I didn’t want to get stuck or get too comfortable in ways that I have witnessed from others. I also didn’t want to close the door on a life that I felt was only possible outside of this industry.
Looking at the cards that I have on the table, I can’t live this way. I can’t tap out, when opportunities keep presenting themselves to me. This is my full surrender, my true surrender. I’m asserting each day, the things that I want in a way that has never been so direct, so clear and so certain.
I am letting go fully of my idea of how my life will turn out so that life can show me beauty beyond what I already know.
I have taken a promotion for my next feature which goes against my desire to leave this industry, but something is keeping me here and it’s not fear. I choose to “lean in” to the opportunity and double down on this career until the opportunity comes for me to be a full time writer.
Last year taught how to let go and walk away when the time is right. I know I can do it again, when the time is right. I no longer fear getting stuck.
I’m no longer afraid.
Facing my fears has taught me about the courage and bravery that I didn’t know I had. My hope for you is that you too will no longer fear the life that is waiting for you to live it.